just heard on the wire:re: govt failure?
I bet Arnold Schwarzenegger could've prevented this.
**Books for the children!!!**
(note: books for the children solve everything.)
re: govt failure?
We know nothing about this 'New York' or 'Niagra' you speak of. It is our offical stance that these places do not exist, and therefore no 'power outage' could have occured.

re: short rain
I second that.
re: short rain
That's absolutely gorgeous!
re: tired nightmare
maybe a slice of pi would help?
re: oxy!
how about just plain old MORONIC
re: hello kids!
Oh this makes sense! "Microsoft Wins Homeland Security Contract" Now the prayer request button in IE can connect you directly to Bush!
re: hello kids!
violent confusion and subtle revolution seeping into the very flesh of sudden quiverring. Stop. Yet everyday I have the blues. YoooOOOOOOwL. I've had to drop stone drunk crazy...stone crazy you're goin to looz yo mine...how couuld you treat me so dirty bay bee... cry i n g. I N my dark room. W eye eeeeeeee N' to the cole dark nigh
re: relatives? gah!
crazy to be normal that is a setting on the dryer -a book title- a book for you i have i saw: hitchhiking the galaxy one more time compiled from the apple macs of douglas adams "The Salmon of Doubt" come and get it...I'll swap it for my mower [grinnnnn]
re: who
i don't know. "fuck everyone" seems to be a lot more than masturbation. in fact, it could prove quite a challenge to most of the population out there. although i agree with the rest of the statement.
re: who
exactly.. fuck everyone.
re: who
well this was written in a positive light - as what else is life about? I can think of no better way to spend "time"!
re: who
"fuck everyone" is the weakest form of masturbation. All for one, one for all is the way it flows.....
re: face masher
life really sucks
re: face masher
why does life really suck?
re: splendid
http://www.lassitude.com/skiddywampas.asp

re: advantage
As she mopped up the remains of the exploded brain, miraculous things began to happen
she could actually feel the emotions behind every thought splattered against the wall
she felt the love dripping from the curtains
she felt the anger pooling near the drain
she felt the frustrations dotted all over the ceiling fan
Is that happiness smeared on the door?
"hey!" she thought to herself.
"I've felt these things myself at one time or another"
Soon she discoveres that she is able to identify with EVERY destroyed thought this person left behind
"but how?" she wondered.
Then she thought about the color. The smell. Weren't her own brains the same color?
Wouldn't the mess still be a mess if it had been her own head instead?
Then suddenly, it clicked!
She found herself drenched in the knowing...the knowing that it is all the same...
That we are all one
Each brain connected to another via an invisible grid,
each carrying out the work of the individual soul who inhabits that particular space for that particular moment
The walls were coated not only with THIS random brain...but hers as well.
and all the people that she knows
and all the people that those people know
and of course, the people that NEVER seem to "know"
even that fucking pervert in jail with a life sentence was unknowingly represented all over the rug.
Nobody's thoughts were left out...how could they be?
If one person is excluded, then you are stupidly excluding yourself as well, correct?
Clean-up on aisle seven!
Sigh
Another one bites the dust.
As she rolls the bucket towards the next disaster, she embraces her new thought
Wow, thinking about it continues to BLOW HER AWAY!
re: grope for lunar!
well, here in Loveland the weather neglected to bow to my wishes for a clear night ... figures
re: gospel
oh great, now its staring out of me
re: twisted - please shock me
Speaking as someone who does have the two halves of my brain swapped, it doesn't help much.
re: plants
Interesting is definately the right word. I don't know if I would consider the trip pleasant. First of all, you completely forget that you took it in the first place, which makes it hard to do the 'it's the drug making me think this way' thing. There was a strong sense of false gravity that was pulling me from behind. I can't begin to explain the state of mind it puts you in, because it was so bizzare. There was some visual effect, but it was mostly because I couldn't recognize anything (i.e the rug I was sitting on). Lasts about 3 to 5 minutes. Intense laughter that comes from nowhere and feels empty. I still have a bunch if you're interested, I tried it about three times then was done. No desire to experience that again. I didn't do all that much at once, so I didn't get the compelete experience.. I'm okay with that.
re: plants
Yes it is bizzare, though pleasant for me, so yes I am interested!
re: mind
If it were true - then the future would be set in stone - is it possible to set the future in stone?
re: better and better buf
I wonder why exposing some skin and looking cute while sobbing doesn't work as well for guys as it has for me?
re: dreams
Heh, I can see big tall guy with tatoo's doing that. He's crazy that way.
re: dreams
I this man me? I want to say for the record I have only drank anti-freeze once, and that was for science. All other blue liquids you may have seen me digest were either blue koolaid, or toilet cleaner.
re: dreams
Well perhaps when the pole-shift happens (T-10days), we can get together and drink antifreeze?
re: affermation
no yer not
re: affermation
Yah, if it's in print it's libel. Which would make you a libeler, or a libelist. And yep, slanderer is a word. Though I'm sure they deserved it! ;)
re: bullshit - and wait for the backfire
It's nice to be happy and in love, isn't it dear? Bitter people that enjoy spreading poison to others for the sake of argument are pathetic. Let's go to Vegas and get married next month, eh? We have a lot of reasons to be happy...and no, being rich means nothing to me...been there..done that...it will never equal happiness to me. Keep on keepin' on. ILYWYL :)
p.s. Vegas is on me...I don't owe nobody NOTHIN and I'm feeling generous
re: bullshit - and wait for the backfire
need a ring bearer and flower girl...?
re: ho hum
achooooooooooo!
Soap and water, that's the way,
You can wash the germs away.
Keep on washing when you do,
You'll get rid of germs, it's true,
Now your hands are clean, here's why!
Germs are down the drain,
GOOD-BYE!
Oh wait, isn't that how this SARS thing got started? Because of germs in the sewer? Darn.
re: by the numbers
greetings to slackerdude and all. A synoptic click of the shutter and review of time blocks. O to remember when I was in my 20's [now I'm 47] and my idealism and disillusionment with pop culture's wishy-washy splash and gleem for nada. Suddenly clinging to a new ideal and identity...one wrapped around the goooz bibble and personal holyness...the entire universe seemed to look at me differently. An overwhelming friendlyness of every molecule. The cosmos was created to entemple the name of GOD...and I knew that name for the very fist time. Knowing took on a whole new depth. My friend gave me so much at that time. Jesus was magic to me then. Tim e litt er al l y s t o p p e d. We would stand in the middle of a noisy busy factory with fork lift trucks rumbling by and talk about questions I had and the Spirit would give him answers and we would converse un assailed by any of the commotion of 'this life'. . . . . . buenos noche amigos....via con dios....adios. NOW a new adventure awaits those whose gooo is bigger than a clique.
re: by the numbers
i think if they read their own bible, they would understand for themselves' as goo intended it. but, on second thought, maybe they did read their own bible, and they did understand as goo indended them to understand it.. that way you would be irked to think about it.. so goo could say whatever it is that it needed to.. but then again, goo could be filling my pours with poison laced suger too.
if you didn't realize, i'm struggling with my world view right now, and i guess this reply is intended to provoke other strugglings that might contribute... ;)

re: peeling through
I found out a friend died. The man that turned us all on to mine exploration. A very healthy looking 59. "Dave" everyone called him but his name was James...Calzia. Marathon runner. I suspect no matter how late he worked the night before he'ld drive from Brighton to Boulder and run up and down the front range. He could run up the entire Lookout Mountain trail. AMAZING MAN. He survived and accident many many years ago he wasn't supposed to be able to ever walk again...I think many things about my friend "Dave". He had an amazing array of old vehicles International Scout with a chevy engine. Beautiful Yellow Jeep with lights on the roll bar and a 'beater' Scout. I'll miss talking to you Dave about this wonderful state you so enthusiastically explored...
re: oxymoron
Does it matter whether the shows are realistic or not? In retrospect I'm horrified to realize how much I've learned about life from sitcoms. Granted I didn't actually learn anything about life itself, but I've often acted on that information. It's taken me years to identify what social habits I've gotten into were invented by writers and what actually exists.
re: oxymoron
I had no idea what the term "gay" meant until I started watching "Three's Company" back in the 70's. Granted, I was still a little young to really understand what it fully meant...but the weekly scenarios about Jack Tripper pretending to be gay so he could live with 2 girls for cheap rent opened up a whole new world for this innocent little mormon girl from Idaho.....so ya, I learned about homosexuality from a sitcom....what's wrong with that? If it wasn't for Three's Company, who knows how long my parents would have kept me in the dark about that kinda stuff. Let's not even get into how much I learned from watching "The Facts of Life"....the title speaks for itself, eh?...:)
The setting was different. It was the parking lot of a dennys, we were hurriedly jamming our backpacks full of equipment, for once I seemed to be the one that they were waiting for to finish. We walked passed the restraunt and towards a nearby mountain face. Me, pulling on my pack and hurriedly trying to fasten the straps to my pack as our pace quickened. The woods at the base of the mountain seem to approach us, the darkness seemed to gather strength in opposition to the supposed rising of our sun. I could not seem to tighten my backpack straps correctly; my pack felt like it was trying to jump off my back as our pace quickened as we dove into the swaying pine forest with its quiet whisper around our ears. We now almost at a full run - well as full of a run that could be had with a pack bouncing around on your back. Arms flailing in efforts to stave off the snatching branches, as we made our own trail forward. My brothers ahead of me thrashing forward with unfaltering gusto suddenly halted. I nearly crashed head long in to their backs but instead dashed around them only to stop dead in my tracks staring at the man they were talking to. He was sitting in the middle of this wood, trying to sell them some odd trinkets. Being polite as a startled out of breath person can be, we all panted to him I polite "no-thank you" while glancing at each other. We knew what we all were thinking, like being struck by lightening and reeling from the shock of it we started off again. Glancing back after a few steps into the thickening forest, I could no longer make out the shape of seated figure. Dismissing any fears that were trying to edge into my mind, I shook my head and continued forward. Breaking free of the forest in a skidding of feet, we simultaneously bent our necks at painful angles to look up at the mountainside that suddenly presented itself to us. After a quick glance to each other, an unspoken decision was made. We started up the incline that followed the mountain face up. Towards what I had no idea. As our pace slowed on the incline my mind had a chance to play catch up, and questions of why we going this way, and what our ultimate goal was clouded my concentration. Passing another traveler who was however in what appeared to be a deep slumber. Confused I continued on my task. Slowing, and falling slightly behind my younger brothers, my head bowed to the task at hand, lungs trying to collect the thinning air. I paused trying to catch my breath, looking up I saw my brothers ahead waving to me to hurry up. I scrambled up to where they were standing to see them with another traveler at the mouth of a cave or perhaps a old mine. This traveler was smiling, remaining silent and motioning with his hands that we continue into the gaping hole in the side of the mountain. Cautiously we pressed into the darkness, and after a few steps a glow started to grow around us and light the path that our faltering feet were attempting to follow. As the light grew brighter, we could make out many travelers gathered near the walls of the quickly widening cave. Unconsciously slowing to a shuffle we peered with great interest at the people around us, none paying any attention to us, all with packs and dressed ruggedly as we were
re: cave
Is there more to this? You've captured my attention and I want to know the rest of the story.

re: oh please please lick my brain - it tastes like candy
Man, I keep wanting to reply to this, but it's so fricking complicated that I don't have the time to address it properly. So here's the shortened version. Should we have to be told with authority 'not' to go to war? I think we should approach the situation from the opposite direction. Because I would rather try and convince myself that people will be dying for a cause instead of asking 'people will die, why not?'. The middle east is an area bogged down with so much history that it's nearly impossible for us (as a young US citizen) comprehend. We can't forget that religion is involved, and while we're religious in the US, it's nothing compared to the middle east. Those people experience true persecution, and religion defines their universe. I'm afraid of the precident this sets, who are we to forcefully become the religious arbitrator in the area? My point being that religion sets the politcal agenda in the middle east, and while I'd like to think I understand, I don't.
Here's where it gets complicated. The question I ask myself 'what course of action will save the most live, and end with the least lives destroyed (of the living)?'. A question much easier to answer in retrospect. For example, it's said that by bombing Japan we saved at least 900,000 (japanese citizens) lives, even though we killed 100,000 in the process. Now Saddam is a bad man, there no question about that, but think about what we're risking. The internation tension is rising. Korea is becoming very defensive, and rightfully so, because Kim Jong Il is also a bad man. Yes, we can take out Iraq, easily... but how about the entire muslim world?
I'm going to leave it at that, because this conversation really deserves talking, it's just too darn complicated. I.e. are we bluffing, what about oil, bush's agenda, isreal, the UN.. too much.
re: itch d@mn it!
The 'scream, scream a hundred bad dreams' is from a Chris Smithers tune called 'Clap Hands' that Mulvey recorded on his deep blue album. Did I burn you a copy of his CD's awhile ago, or did you come upon this music itself? I just saw him at Shank last week, he's frickin incredible.
re: take your terrorists and shove it
i have a novel idea. lets ban everything that has any potential to be a threat to people... including teeth.
re: take your terrorists and shove it
but then who will chew our food for us?!! ahhhh!!!
re: take your terrorists and shove it
No kidding. The last alert was placed before they bothered to even check up on the informant. They would be much more accurately named CYA Alerts, because that's the only reason we have them. The politicians in power don't want to be blamed for not anticipating an attack, so they dilute our fear, rendering the alerts useless.
re: take your terrorists and shove it
similarly, i think the "threat level meter" is more likely a population psyche gage. they heighten the altert level and see how much power they posess be observing/measuring the population's paranoid responses. this latest one worked quite well.
re: take your terrorists
Thanks for the birthday wishes :)
People need to start taking responsibility for their own goddamn safety...for instance, if you pour scalding hot coffee all over your dockers and then sue Mcdonalds for making it too hot you are a fucking idiot...probably the same fucking idiot that bought a case of duct tape because Donald Rumsfield said it would be a good idea. Why can't ppl stop being robots and use their own brains....what happened to common sense and taking responsibility for your own safety instead of relying on the government to tell you if you're safe or not. We should all have "terrorist alert kits" labeled COMMON SENSE...not just for terror attacks but for earthquakes/windstorms...faulty wiring in the basement. Being "prepared" in general can be useful for many situations...not just stupid terror alerts.
re: and also
www.danternet.com
re: take your terrorists and shove it
While I agree with your point, the McDonalds lawsuit has a lot of misconceptions. Here's a site I googled for that has some good info. They kept their coffee at an extremely high temperature to get more out of grounds. The woman only sued for damages (which were extensive, 6% of her body had 3rd degree burns, a lot of which 'you know where'). The judge awarded her punitive damages which are based off of the companies net worth (or gross, I can't remember). Which is why she got the 2.7 mil, but she didn't ask for it, the judge wanted to set an example. Even that was reduced to $480,000.
Now suing McDonalds because you ate too much and gained weight, when the caleries are posted on the wall inside, is stupid.
re: amazing
It's Lithium by Nirvana :)
I'm so happy cause today I've found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's ok, cause so are you
Broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is every day for all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze cause I've found God
re: amazing
more words:
I'm so horny but that's ok, my will is good
re: amazing
I'll be there in 20 mins :)
re: oldie but ... what?
the info is amazing...even more is how they interpret with athourity...as if they could know the only true interpretation of the facts

" the draft language of proposed legislation that would update and sharply expand 1991's USA PATRIOT Act"patriot2-hi.pdf (7mb) high res pdf
re: And I was worried before?
This wouldn't be so scary, except for the precedent(ha! a pun) that has come before us.
This whole thing may or may not be true, we'll find out soon enough. If it is though, it's a serious breech in trust. Habeas corpus is one of our fundimental rights, how could our government even *play* with the idea of removing it?
re: TIA baby
and here's another...
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re: TIA baby
and another ...
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re: slosh the jug
did we really slosh through 2 jugs last night? We'll have to do a driveby past the "fillup" station tomorrow :)
re: irritation
multiple personalities - might be the explanation. abuse has that effect. at any level.
re: irritation
Yah, I bite my lip too. It's amazing how well it heals, I figure I should be disfigured by now. You can also tell my precise state of my mind by looking at my cuticles. Right now I'm doing pretty good, went through a anxious spot so there are hangnails, but they are on their way to healing, showing that I've been well adjusted for about 3 weeks now.
re: irritation
still nibbling ... so I must be maladjusted ... and yes I have/had/am biting my damn lip
re: someone
because ' and " are special characters, i think you'll have to escape them with a \
using the backslash i can type \
in this form without asp processing it as html tags... i think.. did it work?
re: someone
guess it didn't work.
re: sneaker
And of course we all know how well sanctions work! Look at cuba, they've been doing everything we've said for the last 40 years. Oh wait.. they haven't? Hhhmm okay then, but I'm sure it'll work with North Korea, I mean look at how well it worked with Iraq. Oh wait.. we did go to war with them. Not to mention that sanctions only hurt the populace. Who in their right mind figures that since sanctions have been placed, the ruling elite is going to go through some hardship? If anything it rally's their peoples hatred of us, because after all, it's our fault they aren't getting all the food they need. Especially with a country like North Korea that doesn't have any free press or open media. For once in my life I'm on the bully side of things, and it sucks.
re: sneaker
Oh, and be careful when you start your own country. The US might oust you for your own good.
re: anyone?
They're still making new episodes? I had no idea. Always enjoyed them in the past, good to know they're still working together.
re: anyone?
Nahh they are not making new ones far as I know, I was just watching re-runs...

re: violent
I bet Rush Limbaugh's fat fucking SUV driving ass is happy as hell about that little tidbit. Go back to the 80's you stupid motherfucking yuppy reagan-ite tree killers YOU!!
re: violent
Dear Bush,
you have officially made it to the top of my shit list.
re: violent
disclaimer:
any personal acquaintances owning suv's, I forgive you for your ignorance :)
(4 cyl vehicles are not suv's are they?! oh no!)
re: violent
It's heartening to know others feel the same way. Except I don't think it's fair to pick on Limbaugh because he's overweight, he has many more glaring flaws to rip into.



re: adventure...
That looks gorgeous. If I hadn't been in Arizona hiking a week ago, you'd have one jealous guy on your site.
re: adventure...
Well come on out!
re: thought
I would agree. False expectations can do so much to screw up someones happiness. Well things 'should' be better, therefor I'm sad. The one positive I'd like to add is the increase of options. At lease now we have more options. We could live in the forest with what we can carry if we wanted. We can also persue the 'american dream'. I can't say whether it's done more damage than good (waaay too complication.. too many spurious connections) because it also allow people to believe that anything is possible, which is good(I think). Not to mention that we're at a unique point in history, precidents are being set every day. Just look at the internet, it's fundimentally changing human culture around the world. No longer are there (as many) isolated pockets for narrowmindedness to evolve. Information is now avaialbe everywhere, and I can talk to someone in Isreal instead of taking our media's word. This I believe, is good.
re: thought
"American woman...go and sparkle someone elses eyes" some 70's song that I recall got my attention...back in the day. The Human Dream. That is what may be better...but there can't be such a thing. Someone always wants to speak for everyone. Barter dreams are different from multi-level-marketing dreams are diffent from holy war dreams...Leavers and Takers have different dreams too probably. Image my own future not as just me but as a Maker...making stuff to leave perhaps. My latest mantra to support my own sanity has been "every moment is a jewel." Living is a cathedral to sing in and to find a wall against which one can piss. Freedom dreams. some characters in my head are adult cops, some are nazis, some are mom some are dad or stepgranddad...facets observing without immediate judgement...seeking freedom inside from some of them or maybe them all.
re: thought
Well said. That's where the problem always begins doesn't it? When someone decides that what they've found to work for them should be imposed on everyone. Trouble is, just because it's a good Idea, and does work for you doesn't mean it will work for everyone. Seems obvious to me, but I didn't always think that way. Its usually based off of best intentions, they think 'Hey, it made me happy, lets make everyone happy!'. But my observations/experience has shown me that these types of things need to be dynamic. I like how you said 'My *latest* mantra' which implies that you find different ideas when needed to keep yourself running smoothly. I also find that last metaphor of a facet perspective to be very useful. So much is contained in perspective, yes it's hard to put yourself if the shoes of someone else, but it really helps to try. Especially if you make a habit of it. You'll never be able to consider all angles of an issue because of limited information, so the best you can do is approach it from as many directions as possible, then compare and contrast.
re: so while...
If you want to see some *real* reality TV check out PBS, right now they have two reality shows that place the people back in the Bronze age and frontier america. These people are in it for the long haul.. couple years If I remember correctly. They can only use technology that was present at the time, and only have provisions that would be available. For example the frontier people travel to a trading post miles from where they live, and they can barter (eggs ect) as if it was the old day. I think I've some similar shows on TLC and Discovery, but I haven't watched cable in awhile. Don't hurt your TV, it's just as confused an helpless as we all are. Give it a chance to redeem itself.
re: so while...
Me and Lisa watch that show this summer, and both wondered if we could live the life? I think I could...
re: good things
it would seem to me that is a bad thing. gov't controlled activation of our personal property is a bad thing indeed. think of what may be next.. our computers, maybe a snippet of java script that turns on our microphones and webcams..
re: good things
Why not have our property spy on us? oh wait...
re: Exodus or just alarmist
Hey there, yeah I found that out first hand.. twice actually. Quite a jarring break into reality. All I can say is, pay your speeding tickets, they don't go any easier on you because your in for something stupid.
re: Exodus or just alarmi
Well those are not the bars I was talking about :)
re: Exodus or just alarmist
Yeah, but it's amazing how much more threatening the real ones are compared to the metephorical ones. Makes the metaphysical much more substantial.
re: Exodus or just alarmist
much more substantial or much less?
re: Exodus or just alarmist
Definately more. Before the incident, the idea of becoming deprived of my freedom was a vauge unrealized fear. Now I realize how much more possible this is, and need to factor it into my worldview. Providing nice solid bars for my imagination.
re: Exodus or just alarmi
meaning, you will never let it happen again?
re: hello!
No Kidding. Wrote a paper on this in high school heh. 100 Billion stars in our Galaxy. 30 Galaxies in our local cluster. 50 clusters in our supercluster. Millions of superclusters string through the universe. That picuture right that you posted was (if I recall correctly) taken from the hubble space telescope of a particularly dark part of the sky, and the astronomers were amazed with the number of galaxies in that one point nearly 14 billion years away. Do the math, even if the probability of life around any given star was .000000000001 you would still have billions of sentient species out there.
re: hello!
EXACTLY my point, thank you!
We are alone with our safe little bible that tells us we are special. We like being special. *grin*

re: still I say!
I have to say that you and I had a good 2002...despite all the minor troubles we encountered along the way...thanks to you and your family for making me feel at home in Colorado...the hardest thing I ever did was move last year..but it proved to be the best decision I've ever made and the future's so bright I gotta wear shades. I love my new job and you and I are going to travel the world next year even if it KILLS ME to make it happen...You and I were meant for eachother....of this I'm sure. Here's to a fabulous 2003...if we die via Planet X this Spring...then at least we'll die happy goddammit! YAY FOR US! Loveland ROCKS! Love, yo woman..Lisa:) (p.s. I saw many snakes in the bush this past year thanks to you...YA BABY! KEEP 'EM SLITHERING..I'll be ready and waiting:))
re: I still...
i've read most of ishmael. i didn't finish it because at the time, everything being said was so close to my perspective already that the book felt like it was dragging along to bring about anything new. i would like to read it again, from a fresh perspective brought about by time (it's been a year or so since i read it). i may realize my thoughts aren't as close to those in the book as i had believed, and they may be able to use some refreshing/updating.

re: easy does it slick
Drugs, just like anything else are a two edged sword. Just as TV can be constructive (TLC, History Channel) and fun (Comedy Central, Cartoon Network), using it in the extreme can be harmful. For the most part Drugs work this way also. If you know what you can handle (i.e. I know I could never touch coke or heroin because of my addictive personality), it can enhance instead of hinder your life. So if you remove law enforcement from drugs, they end up pretty much everything else.. a vice for some, a life enhancement for other. Granted you can't really take the law out of the equation because that has been our human reaction to them so far, but our reaction is based off of thousands of years of religious influence. If we could start with a clean slate, I think it would be a different situation alltogether. Just look at Europe and Canada, they're changing.. they're starting to realize that the drug war causes more problems than cures. Pot is often described as a gateway drug, but the gateway is created by the law enforcement. If I didn't have to goto scary drug dealers places to get my green, I would never have seen coke or crack or any of the things that a profenssional drug dealer does. I've never gone through that gateway myself, but many people have. So now we have this self inflicted drug problem that self propegates itself. When the solution is the cause in a bureaucracy the course of action most often taken is to try twice as hard at the solution. And I would say that without the drug the problem wouldn't exist.. there was no cocain problem before we noticed the natives munching on cocoa leaves for extra energy, we just took that, refined it, and now we have a problem. But people need vices, if they can't find a drug for their vice, they'll find it elsewhere (i.e. sex, gambling). That's the way I see it anyway.
re: easy does it slick
Just wanted to follow up with a quick point. I think people should have as many choices for vices as possible. That way you can find the one that satisfies you but doesn't damage your life too much. It's when I have to choose from a limited selection that I end up with one that weighs in too heavily on the life damaging side of things.
re: crack
Hey bud, ya know my friend from milwaukee the video editing guy gave me the book /Conversations with God/.....and it IS very unexpected and does shred fundamentalist 'logic' I have a copy if you'ld like to borrow it...that is if i can find it. The challenge is_________________________________find someone who gives a shit about your talents and needs....the black iron prison masking a utopian wish-dom? Or is the facade the real stuff and the utopian wish just a figment? Who are the dumb people people that do dumb jobs for 27+ years? I am cracking
"Once something's been approved by the government, it's no longer immoral.
- Reverend Lovejoy"
(wonder how Ace and Racer feel about that)
re: makes sense
Yep, and the bible backs this up. Then again, it does contradict this in many places. But for starters, here's this quote.
1 Peter 2:13-16
"13Submit yourselves for the Lord's sake to every authority instituted among men: whether to the king, as the supreme authority, 14or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. 15For it is God's will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish men. 16Live as free men, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil"
Luckily for them that last line allows for ambiguity.
re: free this
"They that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety."
-- Benjamin Franklin, 1759



re: -ism
The game.
The plot.
the Them.
re: weeak
this week was longer than a flight to pluto. thank god it's over. but here i am. online as my only interaction on a friday night .. a more advanced chinese finger trap. what to do with myself. solipsism cannot be enjoyed alone.
re: munch
do you think I should refrain from wearing my coat with the giant red target embroidered on the back? Since it wasn't on the list...I wasn't sure ??
re: human
Well, Thou shall not kill never did apply to the gentiles. You just weren't supposed to kill other hebrews. I think the more accurate transcription is 'Thou shalt not murder'... Killing is just fine, they did it all the time.
re: human
So whats your take on it then? Lets hear it!
re: human
Not sure, I imagine anyone that went through eagle-scouts as a kid could probably shoot as well as he has. But I'm no forensic psycologist so I'll just stay out of that arena. As for shooting the sniper, I think there's a reason that we have laws allowing killing in self defense. If someone just shot the person next to you and/or has the gun pointing at you, noone is going to have an issue with you shooting him first. But with this guy you could probably walk up to him and stab him 30 times while he was having a burger and you'd be a hero since he's already killed so many. You know Jack the Ripper only had 3 confirmed kills (5 attributed), this guys already worse than him. As far as our sheep people I'm sure we all fit that description in one way or another. Sometimes I'm shocked to step back and realize how much I've learned about life from tv and the movies, but I still feel that I have my share of original ideas.. whether or not someone else came up with them before, we still come up with idea on our own without knowing they already exist, and I think that has value. Most people, if you can get through the stupid social barriers we create out of insecurity/overconfidence, seem to be fairly thoughtful if a little close minded. I think the thing that counts is that they have good intentions.. and though 'the road to hell is paved with good intentions' I still think that this speaks well of us as a species.. as if we're trying for something but we just don't have all the information. It's all so complicated.. just incredibly complicated, this factor effects that factor which effects that one which is mostly random ect. How can we even speak of politics as if we know what is happening behind closed doors, or what will happen as a result of a certain actions, becuase the variables dependant on that action are almost certainly invisible to us.. we just don't have the info.. everything is 3rd party at best, with motivations, and secret influences. So it's much easier to just ignore what's actually going on in the world.. ignore cause and effect (because how much do we really understand anyway?), and just run on stereotypes and gossip.. It's part of how the human brain is wired, we're designed to categorize things so we can look them up quicker. I don't have too much trouble with the white picket fence thing. Hey, if that makes you happy, goto town with the pickets. It's just sucks that what a lot of people consider their american dream is frowned upon, like being openly gay.. or in my case burning a little plant. The white picket fence doesn't bother me.. it's the fact that I can't build my green picket fence that does. Those are lucky bastards whose ideals already fit into the american dream, and I think we've been making progress on expanding that definition.. but it's still a long way off, especially with bush in the white house.
re: first reaction
ok.. i couldn't even finish reading it... i started to get quite annoyed by several aspects of the story.... the media sucks, the mom sucks, the pharmacists suck, the drug dealers suck, the government sucks..
re: first reaction
I think your reply post sucks, you slack jaw'd hippy. Easy to hide behind an anonymous bitsteam, and cast insults, never to meet those you criticize. Oh wait.....
re: first reaction
too bad you're spelling reminds me of my 1st grade homework you candy land lover... go blow of stream somewhere else
re: first reaction
Not only does your mere existance waste valuable matter....the thoughts and ideas spewed from your shell continue to waste time.
re: first reaction
thank you for your wise assessment, however ostensible it is.. for you haven't yet realized that i am a figment of your measly imagination..
re: first reaction
good one.... doctrine dan. I think, therefore I spam.
re: first reaction
excuse me, did I just stumble across a cock fight? say it isn't so....the american public prefers chick fights that turn into kissing didn't ya know?
re: pro tect
What do you need?
re: pro tect
What they need is someone to tell them it will be alright. That their favorite TV shows will still be on
re: generation x
As a 27 year old puppy, you probably were never worth $60 grand a year. What's a matter little boy ... need more pouting time? Grow up and go find a job that pays you what you're worth.
re: generation x
Um.. I think if people are willing to pay a certain amount for you, you're worth that much.. that's how it works.. I think someone is jealous.. The economy has changed, now people with certain skills aren't worth as much.. but they were still worth that much at a time

re: compact
I have to bite on the three favorite/influential books:
"Surely You're Joking, Mr. Feynman" An amazing person, I learned a lot just from his attitude on life, not to mention his genius. http://www.physics.brocku.ca/etc/cargo_cult_science.html (an excerpt)
"1984" by George Orwell .. what else is there to say about this?
"Player Piano" by Kurt Vonnegut .. This guy is so full of Idea's I'm suprised he doesn't burst.
Geeze it's hard narrowing it down to just 3 books, I have to put in a plug for Tom Robbins, "Still life with Woodpecker" is great.. oh and Hunter S. Thompson.. I better stop now.. I could go on and on..
re: compact
The Bible
Ben Franklin's Autobiography
The Rise And Fall Of The Third Reich
The Cat's Cradle
The Celestine Prophecy
Ishmael
re: non bot
I date freaks exclusively :)
re: abrupt help
Luckly we may have the technology to prevent this, although I don't have much confidence in our ability to do this correctly. They systems are so complex who knows what long term effects something like the following may have.
http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/8.11/ecohacking.html
re: abrupt help
More disturbing news in the same vein
http://www.msnbc.com/news/814100.asp?0dm=-23ET&cp1=1
http://www.cnn.com/2002/TECH/space/09/30/ozone.holes/index.html
re: a little
what about our awesome grapevine? and the wishing well? and the cement filled donkey with flowers growing out of his ass? we also have an apple tree with actual apples on it.....you see a broken fence, I see the patch of green grass growing in front of it. Fences are for cows, we have pine trees. The shed needs to be bombed though...I agree with that part.
re: going, going, going...
This is exactly why I play guitar, I would have gone mad long ago.

Nuclear weaponsWhat else can be added to this list?
Large expanses of blacktop and strip-malls
Nearly instant worldwide news/information transmittal
"Global" politics
The internet
Mass amounts of pollution - noise/light included
Global warming
re: re: invade
http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/allnews/page.cfm?objectid=12102997&method=full&siteid=50143
this has happend before
Early CIA Concerns, 1947-52
CIA closely monitored the Air Force effort, aware of the mounting number of sightings and increasingly concerned that UFOs might pose a potential security threat. (10) Given the distribution of the sightings, CIA officials in 1952 questioned whether they might reflect "midsummer madness.'' (11) Agency officials accepted the Air Force's conclusions about UFO reports, although they concluded that "since there is a remote possibility that they may be interplanetary aircraft, it is necessary to investigate each sighting." (12)
A massive buildup of sightings over the United States in 1952, especially in July, alarmed the Truman administration. On 19 and 20 July, radar scopes at Washington National Airport and Andrews Air Force Base tracked mysterious blips. On 27 July, the blips reappeared. The Air Force scrambled interceptor aircraft to investigate, but they found nothing. The incidents, however, caused headlines across the country. The White House wanted to know what was happening, and the Air Force quickly offered the explanation that the radar blips might be the result of "temperature inversions." Later, a Civil Aeronautics Administration investigation confirmed that such radar blips were quite common and were caused by temperature inversions. (13)
(from http://bedlam.rutgers.edu/ufo/cia-ufo.html)
re: back
Yea can you SEE a temperature inversion? Is it blue? Does it have flashing lights? Does it move quickly?
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re: fyi
not in this country. if any group tries to do this, the gov't will go waco on em. in the waco case..the very idea of being outside the government confines was stifled.
re: news
yes.. listening to the news lately is like watching reruns of an orange-glo infomercial. i think everyone is holding their breath.. for what? not sure..
re: humorz
Very amusing website :) http://www.foundmagazine.com/ I love the "notes" section!
re: moition
as I was reading your entry a robin flew towards the giant window in front of my desk and hit the glass with a big thud~****~tweet~****~tweet~****~then it flew away unharmed.
re: employment
Sir Lawrence, Congrats,Congrats!!! I really hope everything works out for you on your new job. Take care mister...
re: relo
other half details
re: gee thanks
or the stage has been set like this since our inception; and we are merely observing a rerun of the same episode that has been in existence since the dawn of time. it has always been this way, because this 'always' is but a single moment. we are merely saying "no" to eternity and letting this moment play out as it will; until, eventually, we will whitness it's outcome (as we have always expected we would, the way we have always expected it to be) and be forced to realize again what we've already known, and will always know: this is a mere illusion, let's just get over it.
re: awake
Perceived dimensions are blending together slowly..attempting to form one final intention...various frequencies are becoming louder and more defined..yet only a handful of us are recording it.

"Just as the government has a book of laws that rule the society’s dream, our belief system is the Book of Laws that rules our personal dream. All these laws exist in our mind, we believe them, and the Judge inside us bases everything on these rules. The Judge decrees, and the Victim suffers the guilt and punishment. But who says there is justice in this dream? True justice is paying only once for each mistake. True injustice is paying more than once for each mistake.
How many times do we pay for one mistake? The answer is thousands of times. The human is the only animal on earth that pays a thousand times for the same mistake. The rest of the animals pay once for every mistake they make. But not us. We have a powerful memory. We make a mistake, we judge ourselves, we find ourselves guilty, and we punish ourselves. If justice exists, then that was enough; we don't need to do it again. But every time we remember, we judge ourselves again, we are guilty again, and we punish ourselves again, and again, and again. If we have a wife or husband he or she also reminds us of the mistake, so we can judge ourselves again, punish ourselves again, and find ourselves guilty again. Is this fair?
How many times do we make our spouse, our children, or our parents pay for the same mistake? Every time we remember the mistake, we blame them again and send them all the emotional poison we feel at the injustice, and then we make them pay again for the same mistake. Is that justice? The Judge in the mind is wrong because the belief system, the Book of Law, is wrong. The whole dream is based on false law. Ninety-five percent of the beliefs we have stored in our minds are nothing but lies, and we suffer because we believe all theses lies."


re: swimmingly sentient sweats
The zebra wants to keep it's stripes. It says that it protects it. Well it doesn't. The leopard wants to change his spotting , but is afraid to let the old go. It is great to want the new, but you cannot have the new until you release the old. You don't have to throw it away just let it go. Don't hold on to it. If it is a car, think of not having it anymore. Don't drive it off a cliff. Don't leave the keys in it. Just say to yourself, I release this car. Then it will be released and the new shall come. Try this and see the new flow in.


re: again
The mythological meaning of the Hero saving his missing link, whether it may be the True Love towards a person or country, is seldom interpreted as a fairy tale. The Beauty of fairy tales is the opposite to what we are - our attitudes. The other interpretation that very few people understand and accept is the synchronized dream we all share in a subjective form. The subjective meaning of the mythological symbolism is felt by every Being whose Consciousness is Ready - civilized Being. It Feels that the Soul already knows what needs to be achieved, and its repetition brings the Change that Creates the Future. When a Soul reaches a level of evolvement in which the ignorance of one plane is eliminated as from the others, then the physical body is the resemblance of the Spiritual Body at the highest degree of Evolvement. It is the Level that very few people fully comprehend the True Meaning of. Most Beings of this plane or similar discover and accept this Level without Understanding the Changes required to be part of it. This Understanding is the Journey of a Soul through an unknown number of mystical planes. It's the Beginning of the Life that was prophecised. (I came across this today after reading your entry)
re: again
Where did you read that?


re: away!
It's good to have you here with me. Last night was fun, eh?
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re: ...
re: again
And where are you now Lawerence??
re: can you
I will personally deliver "A Scanner Darkly" to you tomorrow night, even though I'm not quite done with it.
re: troubled bits in me...
"Jump, and the net shall appear" I'm thinking that maybe your net is on backorder???:)



re: dream
immediately i see the crazy driver as a side of yourself...and a side of your dad too. some times crazy is premeditated some times its just that im thinking of something other than what is at hand and necessary now so i crash out of sincronization with the stuff im supposed to have under control. Yes the leering is at a side of yourself
re: flying
Sorry to hear about your interview being put off Lar. The pictures look great though--I'm glad to see them! still thinking of a way to come out there... Hope to see ya soon -Ben








re: finally
Congrats, Congrats!!!! Glad to hear that you got a Job Lawrence. Happy for you. Take care!
re: finally
CONGRATULATIONS ON THE NEW JOB! You are very deserving of the best life has to offer.
"Streams of my thoughts scream, listen to yourself splash! Please taste when they come! Choke harder! Does it matter, for only a moment it is! Passing quickly with the next, dark settles on my mind, smiles radiate from everything. Quieted is life, leaving only the warm glow of paranoia. I sink my paddle thoughtfully through churning waters, watching the blue swirls swiftly envelop the task at hand. Coins lay in quietly shifting piles, watching me and my scattered reflection placidly glancing back. Steadying my mind on the task at hand, slight rain finds my waiting face. Fog twists its tendrils taking with the melting smoke drifting from my nostrils. Waves slight, clinking coins dancing in unison on the ceaseless surging. Tongue thick, mouth dry, face wet, slight breath from my mouth, I realize, I am alive."I am lacking as of late inspiration that surrounded me when I was in CO.
re: aahhhhhh?
^^2/2/2^^:)
re: musack
I will have some cold ones in the mini-fridge when you get here! Or some coffee at least?
re: my life
Bitter stars melt into acid rain.
re: numbers
FREAKY DUDE!!!
re: to start or not to start
In everything give thanks!!! Praying for ya Lawrence. All things work for our good.
draw around it, looking down from the top. The little girl was not finished drawing it (with a pen in the sand) so I thought I should help her. She looked at me with a perplexed look, and as I was drawing it, my Dad came running out yelling to me that Lisa's Mom just died. He did not say it that way, but said it in such a matter that it was as if it were my Mom that died, or somehow from a different perspective than I thought I might hold in that situation. As I ran with him around the sidewalk to the "front" door, I realized that the sidewalk was in the same pattern as the pattern the little girl was drawing. I remember being perplexed by this, trying to figure out how we would end up at the front door running in the directions we were. Once in the house, the time frame seemed to change. There was a little room with a woman laying in it, very still. I don’t know who it was. Or why I saw what I did. My dad came to me and told me that the ambulance was on its way. I remembering thinking "why?". In the room was my old furniture, my old desk, and dresser. Which have been gone for years (5yrs?!) I walked with my dad to the living room, and into a scene that is hard to describe. There was a huge picture window looking out to the top of a roof to what I could see was a huge skyscraper. There were two huge, brightly colored parrots sitting on the edge of it. As I entered the room and saw them, one parrot dove off the roof and out of sight. The other which was the larger of the two parrots cocked its head towards me, and started screaming something at me, which I could not understand. It was very insistent on what it was saying, and flew directly at me and hit the window full force. At which point the people sitting in the room started clapping and cheering. I was horrified. I rushed over to the window to see the parrot regain flight and fly back towards me and the window screaming the same thing over and over, and at the last second swerved away.re: slough bla
Just wanted to let you know that I'm with you there. Unemployment is lousy, although I'm really enjoying it now.. I've started writing more than ever, having more fun, it's great. But I don't think I have the same obligations you do... living alone is.. nice.. very nice. My first problem wasn't money.. it was more of an identity crisis, I had wrapped myself up in being what I did for a living, that I felt worthless without that identity. I'm way over that now, just having fun. Heh.

"The message appears to be 'see how great our toys are, watch them smash things to smithereens' -- it seems we have learned nothing in 10 years," the Western analyst said.
re: what if
Free and Clean are the key words there Lawrence. Breaking free!
re: ill
Well, perhaps the antichrist is not a person afterall, perhaps it is what we have come to know as the MEDIA???
re: the aether
in fact *all* things happen simultaneously everywhere. what limits our perception thereof is our limited perspective. imagine if we could percieve all things as they happen. i think we would short circuit and die. thus the passage, "...no man hath seen God at any time..." hmmm.
re: the aether
would this be a design for the band? quite cool!
re: the aether
yep yep and thanks -- it's funny that people have agreed on this name, but don't fathom its meaning. aetherconscious....possible interpretation: the mind of god.
re: frustration...
Frankly Frank, you made my thinly layered subconcious mind hurt a little with that one! But yes, I understand what you're saying anyhow!:)
re: frustration...
ahh yes. the binary equation of existence. to be is not to be, that is the answer. and i'll tell you, fear is the reaction to finding a truth. because dammit all, us people are much happier with our illusions. we would rather have the comfort of a system that harbors static rules, than one in which we may bend, break, or make the rules ourselves. that would mean we are in control of our own existence! and we can't have that -- not us poor, pitiful, unknowledgable beings. bleet with me will ya?
re: frustration...
Let us as sheep work blindly the machine that in the end will slaughter us, either with self-created vices, or total and absolute dissalution of our human will.
re: questions? who I am? Yikes
the test said i was 100% Christian Scientist --> i can live with that.
re: wrong
what is really scarry is to think that the same government that screwed up your 99 taxes is the same government that wants to protect us by turning the USA into a police state...imagine how many innocents will be hounded and spied on and jailed!...not to mention house arrests and swat team action on the wrong house/cell because you were babysitting a neigbors pet that looked just like the on belonging to the....
re: wrong
An interesting read, regarding the ability to reason with extremests. Here's an interview with Osoma Bin Laden.. he even calls for a Jihad, here's the quote If the instigation for jihad against the Jews and the Americans, in order to liberate Al-Aksa Mosque, and the Holy Ka’aba, is considered a crime, let history be a witness that I am a criminal. http://abcnews.go.com/sections/world/DailyNews/transcript_binladen1_990110.html
re: blu am
Yeah, that quote is in reference to Babylon, which was the greatest society up until that time.. I think we would be the current day Babylon.
re: pictures
It was good to finally see a pic of you and L..congrats! Your happiness is well deserved. I wish you both the best. ACL